When I start to feel anxious and panicky that things aren't happening fast enough, and when I feel like I'm spinning my wheels going nowhere fast, and that I'm never going to get back into this industry, I need to take a deep breath and remind myself that there's no magic wand to wave and no special button I can push to make things go any faster. Slow and steady wins the race. Despite what people may think, stars are never overnight sensations. I heard a saying once that for every overnight sensation at least 10+ years went into making them an "instant" success. Ten years is a bit daunting, but it's a good saying to put perspective on things.
And honestly, I don't think I'm quite ready to start the audition process again (although I really, really want to get back out there). Part of the advantage to taking such a long time off from the Industry is the opportunity to turn myself into the most marketable and, therefore, most castable actor I an be. And I am not the most marketable nor the most castable actor right now. I am not going to let myself go out an audition until I'm ready, both physically and mentally. I think I need to set clearly defined goals to reach before I put myself out there again. And I need to work towards those goals. I have a bad habit of making lists and setting goals and then not doing anything about them.
Before I start auditioning again, I need to:
- figure out my "type"
- update my look to match my type
- loose a little more weight--at least 50% of the total pounds I plan to drop
- update my headshot
- take at least 1 screen acting class (before submitting for film auditions)
- get control of my audition anxiety (especially before submitting for film auditions)